Conflicts & The Remedy

dunia... oh! dunia...

I really dun like CONFLICTS and confrontations or watever that can be derived in any sort of vocabulary definitions as well as its jargon... the thing is I manage to find my way into one and another... that is irony, very opposite of me... every possible CONFLICTS that I live through is not in my hand, this is out of my control... what we have here can be categorized as human nature... I just follow the flow, let my destiny take over its cause... bringing me, attracting me towards my scripted, dramatize fate... I need to face these CONFLICTS... I will try not to avoid any single one as this will make me stronger... CONFLICTS makes our world suffocated with all of the smirking, screaming, punching, cursing...

dunia... oh! dunia...

peoples are humans... and human will always be human whether or not they are monster or angel, scumbag or preacher, loser or winner, rich or poor, idiot or genius... what we see, what we know, that is the nature of a human... a well-being created by god almighty that is imperfect, full with mistakes... forgiveness is the key for salvation... a key that is truly with us from the beginning, with us all along... the key within ourselves is the actual REMEDY... the REMEDY to heal our grief life, the REMEDY to cure the cancer of humanity, the REMEDY to cleanse our precious soil from war... let us unlock the true meaning of forgiveness with this key, the hidden key, the missing key of our life...

dunia... oh! dunia...

Counting Days Towards The End...

Menghitung Hari...
Detik Demi Detik...
Masa Ku Nanti Apakan Ada...
Jalan Cerita Kisah Yang Panjang...
Menghitung Hari...

Tick tock tick tock...

My time is ticking slowly towards the end... My end as a undergraduate... so little time to spend but so many things to do... thank god there were no more assignments for me to suffer... hahaha... praise to the god...

Tick tock tick tock...

This is my crucial moment of my life, my busiest, the most important... need to excel, need to survive... hahaha... no time to play (yeah rite...!!!), no time to blog (what...!!!!)....

Tick tock tick tock...

Things for me to do...

EXAMS

20 Apr 2009 0900-1200 Captive Animal Management FINISH!!!!
24 Apr 2009 1200-1400 Application To Biotechnology II coming!!!
4 May 2009 1200-1400 Social Issues In Biotechnology so long!!!!

PRESENTATION

need to finish my thesis then present... haiya...!!! so busy la... please finish as soon as possible...
presentation on 11-12 MAY 2009...

DINNER

so many things to plan, then collect money from people (ALONG)
then dinner (15 May 2009)...

Tick tock tick tock...

our time flying away... so stop wasting time here... haha..

Tick tock tick tock...(macam ni kah jam berbunyi..???)

Aduh....!!!!

Aduh....!!!!

"Pahal la mamat sekor ni... kacau bilau betol la idup ko ni.... macam takde keja lain... nak berblog pun perlulah ada content yang mantap lagi berinformasi... ni tak, cakap kosong, loyar buruk and krepak bodo adalah... pahal la ko jadi macam ni...

Dah ini hidup aku... sukati aku la... hidup aku nak kacau ka, nak bilau ka, tak pernah pun memnganggu kesejahteraan hidup orang lain... betol-betol jaga tepi kain cadar lusuh orang lah... apa yang aku cakap takde kena mengena ngan ko langsung lah.. apa ko peduli... pirah....!!!!

Orang suruh belajar... ko pegi main.. suma benda orang suroh buat, ko kata 'nehi'... hidup ko ni bosan giler ke... memang dah takde keja lain ka... coba la bawa berdoa, minta pedoman dari kuasa yang lebih tinggi (sambil menadah tapak tangan dengan tinggi ke langit)..

Dah dah, tak perlu ko nak bersyarah kat sini... buang air saliva ko betol... ni dah setempayan dah aku takung ni... nak aku simbah balik kat ko... ceh....!! aku tahu lah bila nak belajar... kenapa ko susah hati sangat la... tak perlu la nak nasihat aku la.... aku memang dah tergolong dalam kaum manusia yang dah berevolusi, mempunyai lubang telinga yang bersambung... dah tak perlu ko ingatkan aku... eventually suma yang masuk dalam telinga ini akan keluar dari yang satu ni.....

Dua, tiga baris aku cakap... berjela-jela ko balas... macam ada sub-machinegun la pulak... memang aku dah tau ko memang cengitu... aku dah biasa nampak orang macam kau ni tepi jalan merempat.... dah itu jalan yang ko pilih... aku dah tak nak sibok dah... apa yang aku cakap, suma melantun balik kat aku... muka ko ni dah sejibik papan meja ping pong... aku ciao dulu lah...

Pegi la berambos... macam la aku peduli... kau takde aku bleh hidup la..... aku tak perlu orang yang suka menyusahkan orang lain... senang hati aku ko pegi... dah tak perlu datang lagi... bahagia hidup aku macam tu..."

The End...!!!

that was a monolog between my righteous self with the devil within me... everyone always say that the war out there in Iraq or any other country takes its toll on the people of the related country itself... same goes with the war within us... a war that may affect our true nature, a war that is very cruel and inhuman... this war is so near to us... be prepare and alert...!!!

p/s - this week is my study week but I havent started anything yet... haihz.... lazy... couch potato... bum...

The hiatus is OVER...!!!! (for now)

My last post was on 18th of March... that was so long ago... have been busy for the past 2 weeks with my writing, lab, exams, assignments and stuffs...

don't have any idea what so ever for me to publish any post... my blog was covered with 'sarang labah-labah' when I open up my blog just now.... argh..... so busy.... besides that, the internet connection in UNIMAS is like crap... even crap does not act like this... UNIMAS wireless writen with crapness all over it...

enough with that... April... my last month that I will spent in UNIMAS for the entire month... I have 1 month and 2 weeks to go.... then I'm a free man as free as a flying bird... not knowing what lies ahead of me... my unknown future will be unfold...

future will come but the present is here... so I need to survive till the end... wish me luck... final exams, fyp and presentation.... one more thing, I may not actively publish post this month oso... heh... busy what....!!! lol....

Наконец, я сделал это

Наконец, я сделал это...

i've have reach to Waterfall No.7 today. An 

accomplishment that is very hard for me to do it by myself. Thanks alot 

to all of you that have walk, climb, slide and hike our way through the tormented trail of almost 90 degress slope, slippery rocks, muddy flat soil and watever that may hindered our journey for relaxation.

Наконец, я сделал это...

as we arrive at the waterfall, we were astound by the beauty that is far from my ima

gination. what a truly magnificent place this is. before i saw the w

aterfall, i could here the splashing sound of the waterfall. a sound that brings the ultimate 

reward for us. every steps bring us closer to

the Shangri-La.

Наконец, я сделал это...

a place like no other. Наконец, я сделал это, when will you...???

Niemand

i'm nobody to everybody,
niemand...
like a speckle of dust to the vortex of storm...
like a tiny raindrop to the vast open sea...
like a refraction of light to the mighty supernova explosion...
like a clinging hope to the plunging abyss of despair...
nothing more than just a nobody,
niemand...


i'm nobody to somebody,
niemand...
like the stars within a constellation...
like the tips and roots on a tree...
like the right ear to the left one...
like a success or failure at every end of a road...
nothing more than just nobody,
niemand...


i'm nobody to nobody,
niemand...
like a wooden doll with its witty puppeteer...
like a figured shadow with its beholder..
like the closest enemy and the farthest friend...
like the purpose of life with its own master...
nothing more than just nobody,
niemand...

Faccio Che Cosa

it is all about me.... it is always about me.... nothing in this world is as much important than myself... i'm a hypocritical, abdominal, obnoxiously person that only thinks for his own privilage first than others later....

which may benefit me more, give an advantage to me... than i will do that.... Faccio Che Cosa.... that's my priority enactment that i've already sorted out throughout my 21 years of living in this world.... Faccio Che Cosa...  that's my foundation of my believes that i've been practicing as long as i can remember... Faccio Che Cosa.... that's the output that i've been giving to retrieve some input for myself from any receiver that may concern....

there no harm on what i've done as Faccio Che Cosa.... Faccio Che Cosa so be it...!!!!

Les Misérables

Starting of the third month, i felt very very miserable... i dont know why.... my heart keep worrying on something that is actually exist but my eyes and mind keeps denying the fact that will haunt me throughout this semester...

my life is drifting without any purpose lately.... doing nothing makes me worried.... doing something makes me bored... i'm miserable.... miserable... miserable... Les Miserables... i am a poor wretches that cling to any sympathies that are able for me to grab... i hate this part right here...

please help me to recalibrate my purpose, cleanse my heart and soul... i would like to redeem myself to the higher power that can revive my energy, revive my spirit to overcome the challenges that may hinder my journey to run away from my Les Miserables life...

I'm sick for real...

My heads aching with pain,
My red nose showing that I'm having a flu,
Please someone come and give me hand,
I'm running out of tissue...


Mucus drools out of my nose,
Influenza invades my privacy,
Please come out to show who's the boss,
Fight the virus my beloved antibody...


The temperature of my body rising,
Every joint and muscle feel so weak.
Please god give me a blessing,
To banish the disease as health do I seek...


Now I'm off to see a healer,
So that I can make my appeal,
Please take away my flu and fever,
Because I'm sick for real...

Tell me about URSELF...???

Tell me about urself...???

That was the question being ask by my lecturer yesterday... a simple question that may be hard to answer by everyone... a simple question that will be come a trap in any interview sessions that we may attend....

Mr T : Tell me about urself...???
A : My name is...
Mr T : Wrong...
B : I studied at...
Mr T : Wrong...
C : I use to work at...
Mr T : Wrong...

so what is the right answer..?? in this kind of scenario, actually there are no wrong answers... all are right... the main thing is whether the answers are better or suitable to counter the question that was being ask.. the suitable answer for this question is...

Mr T : I am a keen person that able to work independently and able to applied my wide knowledge of expertise on any task or assignments given. I am also able to communicate with others for better understanding which can improve the productivity and quality.

I actually forgot what Mr T had said but the answer given is almost the same... the answers can be varies as long as the content of the answers are same. besides asking the million-dollar question.. Mr T also gave us a short motivational talk that opens up my disclose mind... really... the thing that Mr T said was true....

Before i enter this class, the zoology student describe Mr T to us as a very very 'garang' person... all of them are terrified with this lecturer... they also told us that this lecturer like to ask question and he will choose any person he likes... tall and less hair, Mr T should be a nightmare for any students that enter his class...

but after 4 classes, Mr T looks ok to me... he doesn't looks too terifying and yet he does joke with us sometime... his class is enjoyable and exciting compare to my core classes.... Mr T able to make the class lively with the participation of the students... i love this class...

so what does Mr T remind us yerterday...??? hmmmm... he told us that he always ask us questions to make sure that we are positively sure on the things that we have done and mention... he doesn't like false fact or unparallel answers...

Mr T : Di atas kad manila lain, yang dicakap lain, yang didalam buku lain...

this is a learning process that we must undergo to achieve greatness later... wrong or mistake is not a bad thing... it is always a good thing...

Mr T : A student that doesn't break a beaker in the entire of his student life is not a student...

mistakes teach us to improve from bad to a better one and we need to learn from the mistakes... mistakes are also a part of our learning process... don't be afraid to share ur answers...

Mr T : If you feel afraid on doing something wrong now, how about in the future...???

we cannot feel afraid all the time as feeling afraid hindered us on doing something extraordinary... but when doing something, we need to feel the thing that we do.... we need to understand the thing that we do... we need to know the thing that we do...

Mr T : Don't do anything for the sake of doing...

lots of thing to ponder... hmmm.... need to thing a lot on what i've done before... hmmm....